Eating...

So we are a week into the New Year. You can tell by looking at your calendar. OR, you can tell by the number of people working up a sweat as they jog on the side of the road. In a month, that number will be slashed in half...by April, they will be too busy diving into their Easter baskets to care about running! :)

I will be 45 this year......thereby taking me out of the spring chicken category, as well as the tight ass, perky boob category. However, that doesn't mean that I can't be fit and healthy! So ask me if I am taking up jogging? Or dieting? Nope to both! I want to ease my way back into running, as I SO enjoyed it when I did it, but it is not a consuming goal for me. And diets DO. NOT. WORK. They just don't. What I have found is this, I am not meant to be a size 2. Or a 4. Right now I am comfortable in a six or eight, and that works for me. I could use some toning, and that will happen. Or it might not. I really don't care. What I DO care about is being able to play with my kids, to have a great sex life with my honey, and to just feel good overall. So I make better choices with my food. I don't starve myself, but I do try not to 'gorge'. Instead of regular potato chips, I'll opt for baked ones, or pretzels..or fat free microwave popcorn (DO NOT TELL ME HOW BAD IT IS FOR ME...I KNOW. BUT IT IS BETTER THAN CHIPS!). Instead of vegetable oil in my baking, I replace it with unsweetened apple sauce...I use fat free dairy products (did you know they actually have MORE calcium than full fat?)...I eat apples and carrots...and I TRY to do some 'active' thing each day. Notice I said TRY. I don't obsess. If I do, it only makes me feel badly about myself, and quite frankly, I am quite amazing! :) I am smart (straight A's so far in college!), I am a great mom...a wonderful wife (right Mark?), I can cook (man can I cook!), I am loyal to my friends, and I have managed to keep up with the laundry (that right there is Oscar material!!).

So what if the scale doesn't show me the same number it did when I was 18? I have traded that number for life experience. For laughter, and love, and loss, and true friendships....I have traded up...and I am not looking back!

I am off to make a cup of tea.....and have a snack...maybe some low fat cheese....or maybe a slice of that double chocolate cake we had for Paiges birthday last night...who knows. What I DO know is that either one will not make me happy or sad...it is just food...it is my LIFE that makes me happy! :)

Hugs to all,

Jaye