Yup. 364 days. Less than a year. The insanity that is Marks ex wife will be done in less than a year. I am glad I didn't know back then what I was getting into, because honestly, I am not sure I would have if I had known what it was going to be like. Don't get me wrong. Mark is my world. We have an amazing life. Wonderful kids. I wouldn't change it. But hindsight truly is 20/20. It has taken a lot on my part to put up with his ex wife and all her insanity. Truly a lot. I have had to pay out thousands of dollars to attorneys fees and unnecessary medical bills while we have sacrificed and done without at times. And to be perfectly honest, I have resented it many times. There has been no reason for all of this insanity. Other than Mary cannot function at a normal level. But there is no fixing her, I have realized that over the years. I cannot control it or fix it. So I carry on living my wonderfully happy life. Knowing that I am truly at peace most days, and on the days that I have had enough, I just breathe in deeply and say 'only 364 more days'! :)
In other more important news, I have a job! A real, out in the adult world, using my degree JOB! WoOhOo! I will be working for Marks attorney (so having to deal with Mary HAS had some perks! lol) and as I know everyone in the office, I know it will be a great place to work. I am excited. And nervous. And EXCITED! and I need new clothes! And EXCITED! I wasn't actually looking for a job but this one really just fell in my lap. And everything has fallen into place. The hours are perfect for our family, 10:30 to 4:30 every day, with weekends off! It will allow me to keep our morning routine the same and get me home at a decent hour every evening. A good friend has been recruited (with a cash bribe!) to drive Ben from the bus stop to our house every day. He is old enough now to be on his own for an hour. Paige is thrilled to be allowed to walk from her Junior High....stop. Read that again. Yes, JUNIOR HIGH! GAH! How did that happen?? Anyways, she will walk from the Junior high down the hill to the new YMCA that was built this spring. Most of her friends go there after school, so she is thrilled! She can go for a swim, or do her homework, or take a class...and will be there for less than two hours before I (or Mark) picks her up. It all just works out so very very well!
Sometimes, when you just wait for it, the Plan falls into place....
Hugs to all,
Jaye
Ps. Happy Canada Day!
